Sunday, January 2, 2011
I'm Excited .. Praise God!!
I am so excited about tomorrow, I know it may be kind of scary knowing the baby is going to have another operation but I just want you all to know that this isn't a step backwards. The Tracheotomy will increase her chances of survival and help her to develope normally, like any other baby would. With this Trach she'll be able to learn how to sit up, crawl and even walk. Her speach may or may not be delayed (only because they don't know just yet how much damage, if any, the tube down her throat has caused) so only time will tell. Also I talked to Dr. Mirza, who you all know I've had trouble talking to because of his way of think the glass is always half empty, but when he came in to talk with me yesterday about the operation he was suprisingly optomistic. He told me that this procedure was our first step in the dierection of being able to bring the baby home .. then he went through all things she'll be able to do as time goes by, how she may only need to vent for 2 month or 2 years, basically everything depends on how well she is doing and how fast the hypertenaion is taking to go down. Caleb and I will have to go through classes and training to learn how to take care of her and how to operate a vent, how to sucction her, how to feed her and just general stuff we will need to know to be able to adapt to having her home. Good thing God has made a way for me to be a stay at home mom. I know it won't be easy but this is what I've been handed and all I can do is trust that God has made something good out of something not so good .. He's made a way for us to bring Eowyn home and have a normal(ish) life and that is what I am so greatful for. I have been praying that God would heal her in such a way that there would be no other explination then it had to come from HIM and taking her home with a Trach and a vent might just be that way. I don't know yet what the future holds, or even what tomorrow holds, that why I rely on God and His disernment becaue He is the ONLY one who can see around the corner .. If this is where He leads me then this is where I will go!!! All of these little moments He gives me where I'm so excited to think about her being home, how I can't wait to finally be bale to hold her, I think they are to show me how much more excited God is to finally be able to have us home and hold us in His arms, like He's saying to me "See how much excitment you have in your heart? Now just think how much more excitment I have in My heart to finally be able to have YOU in MY arms!" and oh, how I can't wait for that day!!! Praise God!!!